Work Friends

OK, here's the situation....

I was placed as 'acting supervisor' for 2 days while my supervisors are on training...sounds easy enough right?

NO!

The other 'actor' is a friend of mine, well not a friend, a 'work' friend. Let me differentiate for you. A friend (can also be someone you work with) is someone you talk to when you're not at work. A work friend is someone you speak to at work, but do not exchange phone numbers or EVER see each other outside of the office. That being said... This 'work friend' of mine (from hereon in to be referred to as w/f) is in charge of a group of people and I'm in charge of a group of people. Two groups that do different tasks.

So w/f has been replying to all inquiries and acting like a one man show (i can say this b/c w/f has a beard and moustache) Fine AGAIN. I'm not interested in the praise or excitement of being supervisor, nor am I interested in talking down to people or exerting my EVIL powers to show the world what it means when I'm in charge.

However, a big HOWEVER, is that I am however interested in doing the job, see what it takes, learn the ropes, increase my knowledge and ability. I may as well just have called in sick (like I had planned before I had been asked, if you're reading this S. sorry :oP ).

I find overbearing people EXTREMELY obnoxious, maybe because deep down inside I myself am an overbearing bitch but I've taught myself to try to tame the 'beast' and resent the others when they can so nonchalantly just let it loose.

To boot, we're w/f's so I don't want to confront her and tell her to back the fuck off, I want to be nice and allow her to do what she wants, while letting me do what I'm supposed to be doing (which btw is NOT sitting at my desk looking cute...)

So tomorrow, i will answer emails and phone calls before w/f gets a chance to, i will be on the ball, i will be the big bitch....

or I'll call in sick...whatev

I had a dream...

People come in and out of your life all the time. With time constraints and schedule issues, work, family, boyfriends etc, it's hard to keep up with your friends. Sometimes you let them slide, too far and end up losing them forever.

I had a dream about a friend of mine that I recently lost. Me and him were close, closer than I was with a lot of people, it's almost like we'd known each other all my life. We could talk endlessly about politics, religion and have some of the greatest jokes I've ever had.

When he found out he was leaving the country, he called me, again and again, leaving me messages after messages and I never responded, being too 'busy' to return calls. I had no idea this could've been one of the last times I saw him.

So he left.

And later I realized, he was trying to hook up with me before he left. This overwhelming feeling of guilt and loss overcame me. I wrote him an email where he chewed me up and spit me out, no appeasing my feeling at all, but throwing salt on the wound. Not being able to be fake, which is one of the traits I've always loved about him.

Since then I received the occasional email from him and kept up with his progress abroad with his blog. But it's not the same.

A couple of weeks ago I had a dream about him...Not too clear but I woke missing him completely and entirely. Then last night I had another. This one clear and concise.

I dreamt that me and my new husband (I'm recently engaged but in my dream I was already married) traveled to India, for pleasure. I wanted to go there wanting to see my friend but my husband didn't know that. In my dream my friend (we'll call him TEX) was in India, living and experiencing life.

So throughout my trip I had my eyes peeled as we traveled New Delhi's shopping centers and village shops. Finally in a bike shop (?) in Delhi I saw him with another guy and a girl, I ran over to him and gave him a huge hug, I held him so tight, like I've never hugged him before. Then during our hug, I came in close to his ear and whispered (so my new husband wouldn't hear as he was by the cash register) and I said "Don't ever let me go..." He abruptly pulled away from me and said in a serious, non emotional voice "it's too late." and with that, he turned from me, looked at his friends and asked them if they were ready to go.

For the rest of the trip I tried to track him down and get him to see me but he avoided me at all cost. I just had this hurt feeling in my gut throughout and couldn't get rid of it.

When I woke this morning, I wanted to tell him of the dream and that I missed him, I missed talking to him, hanging out with him, spitting jokes with him, but then reality set it and I realized, it's already, too late.

Womens Inuition

Ok, so recently I've been doing some thinking...

When you're in a relationship and you 'suspect' that your husband/boyfriend is cheating on you, but you have no reason to suspect it, other than your gut, and then you find out, it's true...WHAT IS THAT?

People say a woman has intuition into those things, she can tell when she's being lied to and cheated on, but can we?

Maybe, just maybe, men are ALWAYS cheating, and once and a while you feel the need to call them on it. Because there is a constant state of lies and deception, it would seem as if your 'intuition' proved correct. or....does it prove that all men are dogs ALL THE TIME????

See if he's always cheating, when you decide to check, you'll find out. Because it's always there. What if you were stupid (which unfortunately, the majority of trusting women are) and you never bother to check? You'll never know that he's being a bloody bastard, and stabbing you in the back, while stabbing some other chick in the.....!

Anyway, I haven't yet convinced myself that cheating is a once and a while thing. I think at any given time we're all cheating, it's just a matter of how severe the offense.

maybe I just have trust issues, but it took catching a lot of cheating men to get me to where I am today, believe you me.

hi5 - Who's in?

hi5 - Who's in?

Changing face of comedy

I was watching a show on the weekend called 'the changing face of comedy' it was on Omni TV which we all know as a cheesy channel, one of those 'if nothing better is on' channels.

Anyway it was a quasi documentary about Canadian comedians and seemed to follow around 2 in particular, one Sabrina Jalees (http://www.sabrinajalees.com/HOME.html) and another (I can't remember the name or find it online) needless to say that both were of East Indian background.

and herein lies the problem...

Why do East Indian comics insist on making fun of their parents accents in order to get jokes. I, like a lot of people, LOVE to laugh. I don't normally consider myself a stick in the mud when it comes to making fun of people or things that can break me off a chuckle or two.

However, I think it's important for East Indian Comics (which apparently are on the up and up via the Russell Peters Movement) to bring stuff to the table that does not just put Indians up on a stage where 'others' think it's cool and ok to make fun of us with our accents and all.

I think it's degrading to our people, our culture and it demeans and disrespects our parents as well.

I'm sure there's a lot funnier shyt that you guys could spit being up there in all your glory. Using the Indian accent to make jokes just disrespects your people and your trials and tribulations as such.

Isn't there ANYTHING else an East Indian comic can do to make people laugh??? Is this how low you have to go to get into 'the scene'. Makes you wonder whether they're laughing WITH you or AT you...Doesn't it?

Haven't been around

So... the only time I really get to blog is at work, I think i've said that before, it's been busy, so just in case my one reader wonders.

My son, who's 10 now, thinks he's my husband. The other night when i was going out and went to drop him off at my mom's, he yelled down at me, "ARE YOU LEAVING??? LEAVE YOUR CELL ON, I'LL CALL YOU LATER."

WTF?

Since when do YOU tell ME to leave my phone on???? better take your bony @ss and get the hell outta here with that shyt.

So... I left my phone on... and do you believe that little rat didn't even call me????

I felt like the biggest IDIOT!

Anyway, kids. Can't live with them and you can't kill them!

Don't get me wrong I love him to death, but i think as a single mom, unmarried, he has just taken the role of man of the house. Which at times, is pretty cute, but not so much when he tries to tell me what to wear (no word of a lie), or where to go, or who I'm going out with or what time I'll be home.

If you have kids, sorry, if you don't, don't do it!


M.

I do.....NOT

Since when is YOUR marriage everyone else's' business???

So I've been dating my b/f for about 4 years. Everyone is pressuring us about when we're getting married. I feel like running away and getting married, not telling anyone. It's so annoying.

Plus you have these people that are getting married or know people that are getting married and ALL they ever talk about is the god forsaken wedding. It's almost they had no life before it and will have no life afterward.

I'm sick and tired of the pressure of getting married, I don't need it. I'm not even sure marriage is for me or whether or not I am the marrying kind.

All I've seen is unhappily married people, my parents, aunts and uncles, divorced friends and family. If you asked me if I knew ONE couple that was happily married, I'd have to say other than my b/f's parents (whom I don't know all that well) I don't know ANYONE that is happily married.

Then you have all these desperate girls begging their b/f's to marry them. My theory is, live your life like you're single, and if it happens, it does, and what a pleasant surprise it will be if it does.

I love my son, my girlfriends, my family (sometimes), my job, my car, my apartment. So if I'm not married or engaged does that make me less of a person? Does it make my relationship with my boyfriend any less important? I don't think so. Maybe if people getting married gave as much attention to their relationship rather than one friggen day, there'd be a lot less divorce in the world.

Maybe that's just me...

Only God can judge me???

So, One of my close friends, or used to be close, not so much anymore, went to Korea, I'm not sure why but this guys always doing some sort of whacked out stuff.

He started a blog at www.koreaiskrazy.blogspot.com I spent a good part of the morning reading it. Made me laugh, hard. Which is not a good thing when you're sitting at your desk pretending to work. Anyway, if you're looking for jokes, that's the place to read em. Big up BA...

Went to a religious gathering at a family members house over the weekend. I'm a Sikh, that would make the gathering a 'kirtan' (keer' tin). Anyhoo, one of my uncles decided to read some excerpts from our holy book. When he finished, he decided to enlighten some of the white people that had married into our family, what the heck it was that he was saying in English.

He started talking about how the point of being spiritual was to fulfill your soul and without God you are empty, as well when you truly believe and live your life according to the Guru Granth Sahib, the materialism's of this world will mean less and less to you.

a little background... This guy is the guy that when asked to help out the family financially he said no (when he was VERY well off) and then turned around and said 'I can help you by giving you advice if you want to invest or learn how to spend your money so that YOU don't have this problem tho' and is currently not speaking to his brother in India solely because his brother got all of their fathers money when he died because he took care of him while he was sick for the last ummm...10 years of his life?! So as we speak, he's taking his brother to court to say he changed their fathers will and made him sign it under direst. He teaches and preaches to everyone all the time, and looks down on all as little people that don't know any better.

Why is it that people that consider themselves religious are some of the biggest hypocrites around? There should be some sort of mandatory 'learn to be religious and not an asshole' course that they should take.

I'm sick and tired of people judging others and using God as an excuse.

Don't get me wrong, I'm in now way religious, I consider myself to be spiritual but in NO way religious. But why do they insist on casting judgment on everyone else rather than live in the word and be content just to live THEIR own lives the way they've decided is correct?

Why does world vision only help hungry children once they decide to become Christians? Doesn't a Hindu or Buddhist child get as hungry as a Christian child once it has been starved for days?

Religion, who needs it.